I went into treatment in my late 30’s. But as early as my mid-20’s, I knew that I needed help. I can actually remember dozens of times when I picked up the phone or had the words in my mouth to say, “I need help,” before I was met with this energy wave in my body that said, “Do not do that.”
A significant factor that contributed to my hesitance was the belief that I had to put my entire life on hold to be able to get help with my addiction.
However, that turned out not to be true:
I went into treatment in my late 30’s. And I think as early as my mid-20’s, I knew that I needed help. And I can actually remember a dozen times--who knows how many dozens of times it actually happened--when I picked up the phone or made some sort of a gesture, a physical gesture where the words were just in my mouth to say, “I need help.” And then I was met with this whole energy wave in my body that said, “Do not do that.” And I believe one of the factors that contributed to that was this idea that I was gonna have to put my entire life on hold to be able to get help for my addiction and that turned out not to be true.
And I thought that I would make a video and speak to that, just in case there's people out there who might be in that similar place, who might have had a moment or an infinite number of moments where you were really close to saying, “You know, I just need a little bit of help. I would like to fix this part of my life, or maybe I can get help with that part of my life,” and then the overwhelming gravity of what it might mean to go into recovery takes over and it might stop you.
And that suggestion is that you don't have to put your life on hold. You can take a step. What that step is, I don't know. But it'll depend on what it is that might feel good. To see a counselor or a therapist might be a step towards getting help. To attend to physical needs, or attend to your nutrition, or to sleep might be one of those ways to get help.
None of these may be a solution but sometimes the simplest step can change the entire course of somebody's life, and in other times it might be just the step that makes opens up doors of possibility to getting more help down the line. But the point is that you do not have to put your entire life on hold just to take that first step. And if my voice can be a help in that next moment that comes where some part of you says, ‘God, I really wish I could get a little bit of help right now,” and I can help you over that hump to reach out to anybody and say, “I'm having a really tough time right now,” then I hope that you do that.
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